Confused Feelings

I don't know how long i was in love, i don't know how long it take time for forget, i already don't remember how much i suffer, and how i destroyed myself, thinkin' that he love me, and it was my fault for break us apart. I don't how how time i recovered my way, i don't know how much i changed, i don't know if i'll be the same girl of one year ago.
Two boys lived in my heart, One, i forget him, he destroy all my heart, all the love i swore had for him, i always think in his words, beautiful lies, empty feelings.
Another boy, he just liked me, before of the first boy i thought he' would be the indicated one who'd fix my heart with every lost piece. But wasn't like that, he love another girl, the only girl of his heart own... I fall again.. i decided shut my love and he never will knew it, but one day i can't anymore i told him, i told the truth about my feeling he's doing, and nothing happened... and even i always denied i waited that something happen...
I gave up myself and i let him go away, he deserve be happy with his girl... he deserve be in his place and his place wasn't with me...
The months passed and i was alone, i start to forget him and i was happy, single, fine again i liked it, I went to school and i was more happy to see my friends, but something unexpected happened, a new boy again, he's so likeness to the second boy, i felt die there... and again those butterflies on my stomach, my hearts beats fast...the short memories about him... i don't want fall again...
Was difficult to get my way with too many stones and sometimes bumped into it again, and today I have sworn, that this is just a hiccup and i'm not fall, no again...

.-Emily